Hi Everyone,

 

I am in Indiana living in Rensselaer in a small town. First I was wondering why President would do this to me because I loved my last area. Sister P and I wanted to stay together and work together and I wanted to finish her training. But after my baptism the president wanted to talk to me and I said okay... I thought well he will tell me I am staying and it will all be good right? No that was not the case haha he said I need to talk to you and its important and I said ummm okay I am listening. He said I know you haven't been doing well, he said I been praying and thinking about this so you have two choices: you can go home or go to Indiana. I was in total shock! I told him what??? He said its your choice. I looked down, I was a little upset of course. I want to go flippen home, I have been suffering out here and it's been really hard for me. But I looked at him and said president I will go where the Lord wants me to go so send me away to farm land. He said okay good you will be finishing training sister Payne and I said okay.

 

I still was heart broken though, it killed me to tell my family I have been teaching and the kids who got baptized. The little boys were upset but I told them they have Sister P and Brother Whittle who will take care of them, they have nothing to worry about. When I went to church my last time in the ward I broke down after they were blessed with the Holy Ghost, I couldn't hold it in. I was trying my best not to cry. I failed, I cried bad, I love those boys to pieces and I am still having a hard time being away from them. But yup I packed and got in the car and drove for 2 hours to the middle of nowhere.

 

When I got here I was just still hurt that president did this to me, I was like why? Why do I have to be here? Why do I have to finish Sister P's training? She knows what to do, she doesn't need me at all and Sister P. 2 still needed me because she has been having a hard time. I didn't want to leave her like that, I wanted to help her but nope I am out here. So throwing my dumb pity party of being upset I left. I get to the house actually, its a small house not an apartment. It is way messy and I started cleaning and talking to Sister P. 2, I asked who are we teaching? I found an area book in a box and I told her what's this and she said she didn't know, I was like what? You didn't know about the extra area book? So I went though it, there is about 50 former Investigators and less actives to add to our other area book. That is about 150 former investigators, I ask why haven't these people been seen? She said well my trainer didn't know the area well and just kind of went her way "facepalm". I was like you have got to be kidding me! So I told her what is going on? She said they have been struggling for months and that they are lost and frustrated and don't know what to do. So I said well we are going to take care of that. I have been teaching her the ropes on what to do and how to teach people because she said they don't know how to talk to people. I have been working on that and fixing the area book up.

 

I went to church, its a very small branch about 17 people. I talked to the Branch President, I think he was shocked on how open I was and said okay I am here to help. You tell me what to do and I will do it! Tell me everything about this area, he was really open with me thank goodness because I need that to be able to help. They are struggling but we are working on it. You thought Chicago was bad hahahahaha no that place was safe. Rensselaer is freakin crazy! I told him what??? He said you think it's safe here because of a cute small town but no there are dark places here. He said you watch yourself and I said okay........ Haha He doesn't know me, I am crazy I will go to the dark places! So I told him what places and he said well there is this less active who has pulled a shot gun on sisters and will hurt you. I said okay don't see chick with shot gun. Who else and he says well there is another one who is in a gang and on drugs and she will use you to do it and you will get hurt or in trouble with the cops. I said okay don't see drugy. What else because I found a scary record of a person who is threating and I needed to know. He said there is a man who was mad and threaten to blow up the church and kill me and we had FBI watching out for me, that was last year. I said well good to know, are we safe? He said yup we have people watching out for us and I said okay that's all I need to know. We thought gangster were bad no red necks win!

 

After that my companion said she never has seen the president be so open like that for anyone or missionaries. She said I was the first, she said this is what the area needed. Everyone is like I am sent from heaven. But I am not! I am not and I do not want to be seen as that, I am just here to do the Lord's work and do what he wants in this area. I went to teach this family here and my companion said it is hard, they wont listen. Well I talked to them for an hour and taught a lesson, she was like holy crap! How did you do that? I said they are human beings and they want to know someone cares about them and being out for 10 months you learn how to love people and show God's love to them. There is one girl here, I am going to cry writing about her, she acts like Sethy! She has a tumor and is struggling and the doctors can't do anything right now. I talk to her and she is so sweet and acts just like Seth and does things that he likes to do. I love her but it's hard because I hate seeing her suffer. I need her right now in this area because I feel so alone. I am having a hard time being here....

 

Well I love you a lot and miss you all and hope you are all well! Funny story of the week a Brother gave his daughter the Aaronic priesthood during her blessing and he kept going. After he had to say undone. Haha if only I had that power to say undone haha because when you make a promise with someone and if you break it you have to swallow a 1,000 needles. Well I love you all!

 

Sister Fengel

Hi Everyone!
 

So this week has been good but very stressful... its good for me though. We are teaching tons of people in our zone, we have the most investigators haha. We have more dates for baptism in our district and we get calls from the district asking how in the world are you doing so good?? I am just like, I have no idea, its not us it is all God's work. We are just here helping duh. We have 2 kids getting baptized which I am so excited about, they are so smart and I love them. They read the Book of Mormon 30 mins a day and pray too. They are Matty and Tyler's age, I want the best for them so much. They live in a bad area which scares me almost everyday, there parents want to move and I don't blame them. They have so many shootings and gangs there. One time we went there to teach and we were walking across the street and this black car passed us and its hecka dark. We couldn't see in and then he backs up to us and we are like great we are going to get shot or kidnap... Well it ended up being a cop and he said did you hear gun shots? Did you just get here? And we were like what?? He said you need to get in to a house because there has been shootings going on. We were like ummmm okay.. Yeah we ran to our lesson as fast as we can haha. But the kids will be baptized this Saturday which I am so happy for, they are so ready.
 

We are teaching this other family who are awesome, they like fell out of the sky. We were looking for someone and my companion walked up this drive way to see if this house was it. A girl came out and said can I help you? We said oh we are just looking for someone but we end up teaching her instead and gave her a Book of Mormon. She has been reading it and we have been teaching her and her husband and they are so ready for this in their lives. We don't know how God put us there but he needed us at that time in that area to find her and teach her. She said she has been praying for something and then here you are, you helped me find what I was missing. My companion and I were like wow! It is amazing how people are so ready to hear the gospel.
 

Then we are teaching some other people and it has been crazy. They either think I am there baby or honey and I am like NO I AM NOT! Gosh it sucks sometimes being a girl! I was trying to set a time to see this guy to teach him and he was flirting with me. He said what are you going to bring me?? I said the gospel because you seem like you need it right now! I keep telling myself they are God's children and to love them, I just get done getting hit on by old guys.
 

My companion and I are good, the only thing that gets hard is that we are soooooooooo alike that we butt heads and if one is angry with the other one we don't talk about it. It sucks for me because I have to act like the adult and say okay we need to talk about this because I know she wont bring it up. We need to because if we don't the spirit is not there and it drives me crazy. But so far we are doing good.
 

Transfers is on the 29th, I will let you know what happens. Oh by the way things have changed here, I have big news! I will be taking over my facebook again but only for mission work here. They told us we will be getting ipads and that we need to teach people on the internet so just so you know not to go on my facebook anymore.
 

I have been good for the most part, I got a bad cold and its getting worse which sucks. I am dealing with it hoping I get better soon. Yes I did get the stickers, I loved them thank you!! 
 

I love you all and hope you are all doing good. I will write you more next week and that you will see more of me because I will be writing a lot on facebook about  mission work everyday. Okay love you bye!
 

Sister Fengel <3

Hi Family and Friends!
 

So this week has been good, a little boring haha. But we had a great week, we taught so many great people. The ones getting baptized, when we went to teach them the lesson was amazing. It went so well, we taught the gospel of Jesus Christ and the spirit was so strong in that room. You can tell they all felt it. The kids who are getting baptize know so much and I am grateful I get to see Gods hands in their lives. The older brother gave a prayer in the end and me and my companion started tearing up because it was so heart felt. He is so ready to be baptized. We have been teaching tons of new people, we are hoping they will start progressing soon. I never thought I could feel this great love for people I just met but I do. I am so filled with God's love for his children, its so hard to hold it in. I cry at night for them, I am pleading for God to help them and to not give up on them. I want them happy, I want them to take this gift God has for them. I know even though I have about 7 months left, even if its hard and days I don't even want to get out of bed I do because I know God needs me here. I need to be what he needs me to be.
 

My companion and I are doing way better haha. For 2 days we kinda wanted to kill each other but we are both alive so that's good. We talked it out and we are soo close, I never have been close to a companion like this before, its nice. We have become best friends. She is amazing and I love working with her. The only reason we get done with each other is because we are twins, we are the same person haha. We love each other and we have each others backs because we don't let anyone mess with the other one which is good.
 

But other then that I am good,
see I have a smile on my face :D I love you all and hope you are all well take care love you!!

Sister Shelby Fengel

Hi Everyone!!

This week has been crazy fun. We have been very busy with trying to find more people to teach so that has been our focus. We have been tracting and trying to contact people. Some areas are sketchy but hey we are alive so we are good, no worries I promise. My companion and I have been working hard. We are both independent and opinionated so we bump heads together but it is just fun and jokes. We really get along which I enjoy, we have been good for each other. She used to play rugby so I fell in love with it. When I get home I am going to join RUGBY! I am excited for it! She has helped me a lot to relax because I was having one of those days. There have been crazy storms here but we were at the apartment and she said lets go outside. I said no, there is a storm! She said come on, so I went with her. But then she ran in the storm with pjs on and jumping around and dancing, I think she is crazy at this point. But she comes to me and said you need to learn how to dance in the rain sometimes. She was dead right, we had tons of fun in the rain running around! We had huge lighting and thunder going on and we were soaked but we loved it. She was right about learning to dance in the rain, I have been so busy and just working. I have not been enjoying any of it because how I have been feeling. It made me think about trials and how they are not desirable or easy but they help us and either we can be miserable in them and be bitter or we can enjoy life and learn from our hardship and let it change us for the better. So that is what I been doing now.

 

I did enjoy General Conference! I loved Jefferey R. Hollands talk, President Eryings talk and Russel M. Nelsons talk, they were so good, they helped me a lot. Our Investigators came to one session which was awesome, they loved it. We were watching it once though during Saturday and a huge storm came and the signal was gone. I freaked out because I was missing my favorite talk so we ran outside, got soaked and went to the Mission Presidents house. We asked if we could finish watching it at their house, thankfully they let us in We were so wet but they let us in anyways. We got to finish it there and I was happy! No weather is taking General Conference away from me!

But other then that this week we just been teaching tons of great people and trying to find people to teach. I sent you a package so let me know if you get it please! I hope you did! I love you all and hope you are all doing good and I miss you all and will write you more next week!!

Sister Shelby Fengel 

HI everyone!!
 

So this week has been long and stressful. I was in court (no I didn't get in trouble this time) I had to get my investigator out of jail............ It's a long story but yeah we had to rush there when we got a call and went there in our pjs to get him out of jail. I called Brother J, I felt so bad because when we got there he was there. He canceled all his plans for us, we felt so bad. He came to pay bond for our investigator, I felt sooo bad..... I kept looking down and apologizing, he said it was fine but we still felt bad. We were there in court watching the judge and the cops and the prisoners, my companion was so excited for the thrill of adventure. I was just tired of all this happening to me on my mission. I got sick because I didn't eat after I took my meds so Brother J was going to take us out but I felt bad as it was so I said no I will be fine and he said NO you need to eat! He ended up having a lunch in his car so he gave it to us to eat but we had to go to or investigators house so Brother J followed us to make sure we actually ate the food. He is a good Dad. We got our investigator out, that is all that counts. If anyone needs to get out of jail just call us, we will come get you out. We are sister missionaries that fight crime!

Other than that we went to a member's house to do service for them we had a blast there. I built some toy boxes, that's right I use tools and didn't hurt myself! Then we were talking because I went to eat at someone's house and I told them "yeah I went and saw my little boy" (that is what I call my investigators baby). He is soooo cute! The person thought I meant my baby and I said "yes I have a kid on my mission, they let me stay here even if I had a kid. The daddy lives in South Chicago haha. My companion laughed so hard!

 

 That's right I am hood.

My companion had her birthday, she is 20 years old now. She is not a little girl anymore haha. I love her sooo much, she makes me tired but she is so much fun to be around. She makes my day even though she worries me because she has this problem where she faints. It happens almost everyday and it freaks me out. I keep telling her if it happens again I am making you go to the doctor! It is from rugby, she got something in her head so that is what happens. Hopefully it stops because it freaks me out when she falls over.

I love teaching my awesome peeps. I am teaching this one family that I just love so much. The kids are on date for Oct 19th. I am excited for the boys to be baptized, they are so ready, I am happy for them. Other than that our goal is finding and it sucks haha. Its hard but we will keep going.
 

I love you Mommy!!!!! :)
 

Sister Fengel

Hi Everyone!

This week was better then last week so that is a plus haha. I am training a 19 year old, she is super cool! She is from New Hampshire and has 12 people in her family, her name is Sister P. She makes me tired sometimes because she is go go go. I am all good with that its just with my meds, I am not the same like I used to be. I feel bad sometimes because she wants to be pushy with the members but I told her if you do that you will loose them.. I told her that you have to earn their trust and build a relationship by serving them and making sure your focus on the work. If they just see you pushy and begging for people to teach they wont help you. So she is awesome but she needs to learn patience and charity first.

Other than that it was good. I helped at the community lawn party our ward threw and I got to face paint for people haha. I have no idea why they trust me with that but it was fun. All our investigators were there which was awesome! Then I got to talk on Sunday, I think I sucked but everyone loved it. It was okay, I could of done way better. Not much happen this week. Oh yeah there has been a lot of shooting because where our investigators are a kid got shot crossing the street. They went to the funeral. Yeah its been getting bad out here but we are safe where we live so we are good. My foot is fine I just pulled something and I am taking pain meds for it so I should get better soon.

Yeah I heard about M, she told me and sent pictures. Um everyone is doing good, E is teaching a lot of people. B is good and J finally is out with all of us now serving in Washington! So far everyone is good.

I love you to Mommy and miss you! I am always praying for you guys :)

Sister Fengel <3

 Hi peoples!!!!!

So let me start off that this last week was horrible haha. It has been a bad week........... Let's start with Monday last week: So me and my companion went on a trip in to the city on bike rides, it was so much fun. We had a blast but the next thing we know we can't find our bikes........ So we look and look walking all in Chicago city and we are getting sick and I am tired because I didn't eat much and my foot started to hurt. My companion looked worse then me so I took her somewhere to eat and I had no money so I didn't get anything. As we are done we try to go find our bikes but then we get lost in the city, the sun went down... it's been 3 hours. Its 8pm now and we don't know what to do. My companion and I get upset with each other because we are stressed and tired and in pain. We sit near a step in the dark in the city crying and done with all this crap. We pretty much said to each other hey lets just go to the airport and go home I know where that is haha. But we don't call the president because we don't want to get in trouble for getting lost and to this day he doesn't know so don't tell him!!!! But back to story of our nightmare: So here we are and we know a member named J who has been like our Dad out here but then we argued who would call him... I lost so I texted him because I am to scared to call him. I told him we need help. Of course he calls and says what happen?? I said well we lost our bikes and don't know what to do, I told him I guess I can take the CTA but he said no it's too dangerous. He said I am coming to get you and I said no its okay I feel bad but nope he got in his car to come look for us. So we walked down this street we don't know and can't see anything in the dark. I get soo tired I fall to the ground and just sit there and say I am DONE! We wait and he finally comes. We get in the car crying and he is trying to calm us down. He finds our bikes, take us to our car and he said if I could I hug you I would I feel bad but we just gave him a hand hug. He saved our lives, if it wasn't for him I would probably had to sleep in Chicago somewhere haha. But yeah make sure you thank J for saving your daughter!!!!

 

Then I had a panic attack, long story............. But I have to go see the doctor this week, I will let you know more on that story later. Then one of our investigators dropped us and we tracted all week. People just slammed the door in our faces and tell us to go away so yeah. Then some of our single guy investigators are mad at us because we don't like being alone with them. We told them it wasn't that, I just can't be alone with you haha. Yeah I was pretty done with last week.... its been a bad week.

 

 

Other than that I have good funny story: My skirt fell off in public, that was fun.... Then my companion and I got transfer calls, I am staying and training again of course and my companion is training and white washing an area in Chicago Heights. I will miss her because she is my daughter! So it will be hard, it was hard for her. She had to hold tears all through church. J the guy that is like a Dad to us tried to make her feel better haha. I told him it won't work, I tried. So I will be staying though and I am giving a talk at church and teaching classes. I am sooooo tired, I just want to go to bed and not get up. But that is my crazy week here in Chicago. I will let you know more about my life next week love you tons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

Sister Fengel <3

 

 

Hello everyone!
 

I miss all of you sooo much!! So this week has been soooo longgg. I am way dead tired, I am surprised I am still moving because my body is pretty much not there and my mind. I have been working and tracting none stop.....

Tracting is the least of my favorite things because people are not nice at all. They yell at us or tell us to get lost so that helps me want to keep going but hey what are you going to do, that is mission life haha. But you do get to talk to great people and hear their life stories and talk about the gospel and that means everything to me and I love to do it.

The members are great, I love them so much I love working with them. They truly do care and it makes me feel like I have a family. We are teaching great people that I love! The family we are teaching are great, they came to church and have been progressing so much and it brings me to tears because I feel God's love for them and see the changes in them to want to be better. They both got blessings and the mom was crying, I can tell she feels the spirit so much and see her eyes light when we teach her.

  

We had a BBQ for a home for people that can't afford much, we went to help out and found someone and we are teaching her. When we taught the first lesson her eyes were so bright, she loved it soo much. She enjoyed it and was holding the Book of Mormon and said this is the most beautiful book! She looked at us and said I know Joseph Smith is a prophet, he has to be. I am soo happy for her, I hope she feels the truth of it with the spirit and wants to know more and grow in the gospel.

Then we taught a lest active member, she is amazing! She is a sweetheart and wants to learn more and try to come back to church. She is a cancer survivor. What touched me the most was were going to teach this investigator and we said okay we will teach the 3rd lesson. But after we prayed about it, it felt so wrong so we thought what would God want us to do and we both thought the plan of salvation, We both got the feeling that was right so we started that and had our member there who I am very close to. She is very sweet. As we taught the plan the Spirit was so strong in that room, we had our member bear her testimony on it but then she started crying. She said I lost my aunt a few weeks ago and I needed to hear this. I have been going through so much and have been struggling on knowing the plan of salvation was true and she bared her testimony that she has no doubt at all that this is true now! After she finish me and my companion were hit hard with the spirit and we said goodbye to our investigator and stayed a bit and talked to the member. We told her that God was watching out for her because he guided us to teach this lesson because he knew who needed comfort. Its amazing what the spirit can do!

I loved what the Stake President said about how we are in the sea and its dangerous. We are in the lifeboat safe going to the island but there are people with just life jackets going to the island as well. I think about how the waves are bad and there are sharks in that water and sharp rocks. They will not make it back safely. We are the ones in the lifeboat, we can just past them by and go safely home or we can help save them. We can reach our hands out to them and say grab my hand and I will bring you in to safety. That is what we need to think about the gospel, we have the lifeboat to our Heavenly Father but there are so many people out there that do not have that and its our job to go and try to save as many of God's children as we can. We mean everything to Him.

I have had a really bad week but the only reason why I am still going is because of my Father in Heaven and my Savior Jesus Christ.

I love you all and wish you well! Talk to you next week. that week I will know if I am being transferred so I will let you know. Take care :)

Sister Fengel

Hi family and friends I love!
 

So this week has been a little crazy, its weird that it is just two of us now since Sister C. went home. I miss her but we been working hard. My blood test came back normal so the meds I am on are working way better. My companion and I have been tracting all week, we are done with it haha. People are not nice, lets just say that. But me and my companion are working hard, she is done with training. Well I had 2 weeks that were free so I had time to train her more so she is done and ready to train. That is what I told the president haha.My companion doesn't want to train but she is just so good, I know she can do it, she just needs to believe in herself.

We got to teach our awesome family we have been teaching, they are so amazing! They love what we teach them and have been coming to church. They feel the spirit when we are around and with the members. They have been reading tons, they are great I can't wait for them to be ready to be baptized!

 

Our other investigators are awesome we teach young single men, its weird. I don't know how they all end up with us but they are fun to teach.

So tracting stories haha: So my companion wanted this bunny that was running around the neighborhood so here she is running around in the streets and peoples lawns (yup that is my kid I don't control her). I kinda let her do her own thing even if its not normal but she is awesome. Then we had to go down this creepy ally; 2 guys came around, it was scary. We tract in weird places lets just say that, Then one night we were out and we see these 3 guys pulling out 500 dollars and said he got it from the street. haha yup I love my area even if its sketchy. Some members said when we go down there to call them so they can go with us to keep us safe. But so far we are good.

I love my ward they are awesome they do so much for us, I do care about them a lot! Things will be changing a lot because two sisters were sent home sick. They need STLs aka sister training leaders, I don't want it because its a lot of work so I am hoping I don't get called yet haha. But that is what's happening over here.

I loved my CDs thank you very much!

I love you tons and you mean the world to me :)

Sister Fengel <3

Hello Amazing people!

So my week has been pretty depressing and painful, it's in your letter that I will send today because I don't want to type it all on here... blah hahaha. Lets just say it's been a bad week..... But lets talk about good things that sound way better to talk about right now.

So I been training my new companion a lot, she is doing good. She gets better every day, it was funny because one of the Sister Training Leaders came and I got to chill for the day because they wanted to see if my baby is ready to start on her own to train next month. Haha she would look at me and be freaking out and said help me but I couldn't, I felt bad but it was for her own good. She did freaking awesome, she doesn't need me at all! What was funny was one of the leaders asked me, hey how would you feel like opening and white washing an area... I just look at her and said well I did it before I can do it again. So I might be sent somewhere next transfer on September 17th, I might be training again but opening an area too so we will find out what they will need me to do haha...
 

Then I felt that we needed to see one of our investigators cause she hasn't been answering our calls. So we showed up and I see her and her baby and mom in the car and I talked to them and asked how things are going. What happened and why wasn't she answering us. She said my phone screen shattered so its hard to see and can't answer on it but then she said she has been going through a lot. She said she has been praying that we just would show up, she said I know sometimes you just show up and I was praying you would. She didn't know I needed to come see her. She is going through a lot right now with family problems and money but I talked to her and she started crying and I gave her a hug and told her that everything will be okay. My companion shared a scripture with her and talk to her, it was good for her. I hope things start working out for her soon.

I have been thinking a lot since I been out here for 8 months and pondering why God put me out here. Someone not very nice said I am wasting my time out here, that these people are not going to change and don't need saving but it made me work harder. Yeah it hurt my feelings but it made me want to be better at what I do. So as I was studying the scriptures and praying a lot it hit me hard with the spirit. I know why I am out here, God has guided me here. I know what I need to do. My talents He has given me and blessed me with are to help people out here, He sent me here to use those talents to bring people to know of God's love for them. He also taught me that the reason why I have to have a hard mission and suffer a little bit is not because He is not there but to teach me and help me grow. I have gotten a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father because what I been through here. I want the madness to come, I want Him to break my heart and I want to go through hardship because it brings me down to my knees to Him. I want that because it makes my heart and me a better person and a daughter of God. I feel Him now more then I ever did before and when I felt alone through this week I remembered what my mission president said to me: I am not alone that the Lord is someone I can turn to so I took that and now I see what he means. That I have someone there always by my side and he will never leave me and I know that it is true. Doesn't mean I won't feel happy all the time but knowing that I am going to be okay, that I can't stop because in the end it will all be worth it. In the end God did not send me here to fail, He sent me here to show me He loves me more than anything and has a plan for me. I am grateful for everything because I know I have friends and family who love me more than anything and has shown me that I can do anything.

I love you all for never giving up on me and knowing that I can do anything. Thank you for believing in me!

Love Sister Shelby Fengel! :)

August 20, 2013

 

Hi Mommy thank you for the Cds!! :)

I am doing okay, we have been kinda stuck in the apartment because my companion is very sick and she might be sent home. I don't want her to, I would miss her too much, I want to keep her but I don't want her in pain anymore. If she has to go I will let her go. I will still have my little baby Greenie, she is doing good with her training she is awesome. I don't even have to watch her, she has got this. We got to go to the temple, it was really nice :)

My investigators are doing awesome, they are so great. We love teaching them and we will be tracting more soon when our other companion goes home. Dang, I freaking don't want her to go at all but I am accepting it I guess. I am taking it day by day, its been a tough week but I know God only gives me what I can handle.

I have been dead tired but a good tired. I love this work but some days I don't even want to get out of bed because I just don't want to take another day. But I know God wants me here, he has me here in this area for a reason, he trust me to help him and teach his children. I am doing what I can and giving my all until I have no energy left.

I am grateful to have all of you because you help me keep going when I am at my last point. Thank you for all your support!

I love you all!!

Sister Shelby Fengel

Investigator and Me

August 12, 2013

Hi Everyone!

I wish I had more to say this week but I don't haha. Not much happened, I am just training and I like it. My poor Greenie is having a tough time getting used to mission life but she is awesome. She is pre-trained already so that's good! I have 5 weeks left with her because I was told I will be training again, so we will see what happens, if he let's me finish her training or give me someone new. It is hard being a leader because I feel like I am not good enough to be a leader but God knows I can so I am all for it. Sister C. is my Robin because I am in a trio again so that's fun. But yeah I am Batman and she is Robin, She is my back up for Sister R. because if Sister R. gets sent to Brazil, Sister C. is with me until that happens. So I am like Moses and she is Aaron, I tell her what to do, we are a great team haha. I want to keep her! And we found out she is half Lamanite, so I am really excited that I get to say. well my companion is half Lamanite, that's right she is awesome! Then my Sister N. who I am training is really amazing, I just hope she does better because I know how hard it is for her to be out here. She is missing the world but I know she will get better. I told her to not give up, that yes it is hard but it does get better I promise, she is awesome though.
 

Other then that we are good and safe, promise. We just have been tracting all week sooo nothing exciting at all, sorry. But I am doing good, just working hard, God is teaching me to be humble and he has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I was always scared to talk to people in the street but my two companions are scared to talk and don't talk so I do it all. I have been dragged out of my comfort zone but it is good for me and God knew it was good for me. So I am obeying to it.

That is the CD! It is the right one, there is no words they don't do words but their music is amazing. Did you find Vocal Point? And the Popcorn CD yet? Thank you for doing that for me :) I have been wanting new music. But I have almost hit my 8th month, yay! I get to Skype you all on Christmas. Umm send it to the mission office cause it will be stolen at my place. It's kinda ghetto but I love the people, they are all Jews and awesome.

ME!

I miss you mommy a lot, I love your letters, they help me get by every week when I feel like I am breaking down. I just wait for your letter to come and it makes me feel better. I miss you and daddy and baby bear, I want pictures of the family and bear. I would love that :) I never thought this

would be so hard to be away from you all but it is and it sucks being away from people I love. But I know I need to be here and help God in any way I can for his children.

Tell the ward I love them sooo much and grateful for their letters and for the relief society, they are awesome! I am SO GRATEFUL FOR THAT WARD! So tell them I love them tons! :D

Well take care and I will email you next week love you all!

Sister Shelby Fengel <3

August 5th, 2013

 

Hello awesome people that I love very much!

I don't have to much time, its been a crazy day so you ready for the big news!!!! I am staying in my area but I am training and getting another sister and helping her to know how to train. It's weird but I guess they trust me to keep two young missionaries alive for a transfer and helping them. I am kinda scared that I am a leader but I was a leader in this companionship because I helped train Sister R.. Now she is training and Sister S. down in the ghetto I am a little worried for her haha because she has always been in nice places. But yeah when the mission president told me my mouth dropped and I said okay if the Lord thinks I can take care of two people I am all for it I guess. I am nervous cause I will be training for the rest of my mission so I guess I need to be ready to start being a leader for the rest of my 10 months.

My investigator that is from Africa got baptized, it was sooo amazing! It was very beautiful, we had great talks and we had a musical number for her. Then we had a huge screen come down and play Mormon messages, so yeah it was a legit baptism!! I know how to throw one haha. But her testimony was beautiful, she was crying all day. She called us and said she has never felt this way before and how happy she was and how grateful she is for us. I love her to death, she is soo sweet and caring. I want the best for her. She said we taught her but she taught us, I learned so much from her.

I been doing good this week, a lot of stress but I am taking a day at a time. Just keep telling myself to breath and that I can do this with out ripping my hair out with all the changes. I just don't want to let the Lord down. But I know that I can get through day by day.

Mommy soooo how much do you love me??? I want these two CDs don't worry its mission approved
so I can listen to them, they are at the church book store. I am getting done listening to the same old stuff over and over again. I miss my music I am going to die out here! I want my music back so bad! But back to CDs, I want the Piano guys, I can listen to them because all missionaries do out here so its safe and I want the Vocal Point please!!!!!! :D

I love you and will email next week take care and thank you for everything!!!! <3

Sister Fengel