Hello Amazing people!

So my week has been pretty depressing and painful, it's in your letter that I will send today because I don't want to type it all on here... blah hahaha. Lets just say it's been a bad week..... But lets talk about good things that sound way better to talk about right now.

So I been training my new companion a lot, she is doing good. She gets better every day, it was funny because one of the Sister Training Leaders came and I got to chill for the day because they wanted to see if my baby is ready to start on her own to train next month. Haha she would look at me and be freaking out and said help me but I couldn't, I felt bad but it was for her own good. She did freaking awesome, she doesn't need me at all! What was funny was one of the leaders asked me, hey how would you feel like opening and white washing an area... I just look at her and said well I did it before I can do it again. So I might be sent somewhere next transfer on September 17th, I might be training again but opening an area too so we will find out what they will need me to do haha...
 

Then I felt that we needed to see one of our investigators cause she hasn't been answering our calls. So we showed up and I see her and her baby and mom in the car and I talked to them and asked how things are going. What happened and why wasn't she answering us. She said my phone screen shattered so its hard to see and can't answer on it but then she said she has been going through a lot. She said she has been praying that we just would show up, she said I know sometimes you just show up and I was praying you would. She didn't know I needed to come see her. She is going through a lot right now with family problems and money but I talked to her and she started crying and I gave her a hug and told her that everything will be okay. My companion shared a scripture with her and talk to her, it was good for her. I hope things start working out for her soon.

I have been thinking a lot since I been out here for 8 months and pondering why God put me out here. Someone not very nice said I am wasting my time out here, that these people are not going to change and don't need saving but it made me work harder. Yeah it hurt my feelings but it made me want to be better at what I do. So as I was studying the scriptures and praying a lot it hit me hard with the spirit. I know why I am out here, God has guided me here. I know what I need to do. My talents He has given me and blessed me with are to help people out here, He sent me here to use those talents to bring people to know of God's love for them. He also taught me that the reason why I have to have a hard mission and suffer a little bit is not because He is not there but to teach me and help me grow. I have gotten a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father because what I been through here. I want the madness to come, I want Him to break my heart and I want to go through hardship because it brings me down to my knees to Him. I want that because it makes my heart and me a better person and a daughter of God. I feel Him now more then I ever did before and when I felt alone through this week I remembered what my mission president said to me: I am not alone that the Lord is someone I can turn to so I took that and now I see what he means. That I have someone there always by my side and he will never leave me and I know that it is true. Doesn't mean I won't feel happy all the time but knowing that I am going to be okay, that I can't stop because in the end it will all be worth it. In the end God did not send me here to fail, He sent me here to show me He loves me more than anything and has a plan for me. I am grateful for everything because I know I have friends and family who love me more than anything and has shown me that I can do anything.

I love you all for never giving up on me and knowing that I can do anything. Thank you for believing in me!

Love Sister Shelby Fengel! :)