Hello Amazing people!

So my week has been pretty depressing and painful, it's in your letter that I will send today because I don't want to type it all on here... blah hahaha. Lets just say it's been a bad week..... But lets talk about good things that sound way better to talk about right now.

So I been training my new companion a lot, she is doing good. She gets better every day, it was funny because one of the Sister Training Leaders came and I got to chill for the day because they wanted to see if my baby is ready to start on her own to train next month. Haha she would look at me and be freaking out and said help me but I couldn't, I felt bad but it was for her own good. She did freaking awesome, she doesn't need me at all! What was funny was one of the leaders asked me, hey how would you feel like opening and white washing an area... I just look at her and said well I did it before I can do it again. So I might be sent somewhere next transfer on September 17th, I might be training again but opening an area too so we will find out what they will need me to do haha...
 

Then I felt that we needed to see one of our investigators cause she hasn't been answering our calls. So we showed up and I see her and her baby and mom in the car and I talked to them and asked how things are going. What happened and why wasn't she answering us. She said my phone screen shattered so its hard to see and can't answer on it but then she said she has been going through a lot. She said she has been praying that we just would show up, she said I know sometimes you just show up and I was praying you would. She didn't know I needed to come see her. She is going through a lot right now with family problems and money but I talked to her and she started crying and I gave her a hug and told her that everything will be okay. My companion shared a scripture with her and talk to her, it was good for her. I hope things start working out for her soon.

I have been thinking a lot since I been out here for 8 months and pondering why God put me out here. Someone not very nice said I am wasting my time out here, that these people are not going to change and don't need saving but it made me work harder. Yeah it hurt my feelings but it made me want to be better at what I do. So as I was studying the scriptures and praying a lot it hit me hard with the spirit. I know why I am out here, God has guided me here. I know what I need to do. My talents He has given me and blessed me with are to help people out here, He sent me here to use those talents to bring people to know of God's love for them. He also taught me that the reason why I have to have a hard mission and suffer a little bit is not because He is not there but to teach me and help me grow. I have gotten a stronger relationship with my Heavenly Father because what I been through here. I want the madness to come, I want Him to break my heart and I want to go through hardship because it brings me down to my knees to Him. I want that because it makes my heart and me a better person and a daughter of God. I feel Him now more then I ever did before and when I felt alone through this week I remembered what my mission president said to me: I am not alone that the Lord is someone I can turn to so I took that and now I see what he means. That I have someone there always by my side and he will never leave me and I know that it is true. Doesn't mean I won't feel happy all the time but knowing that I am going to be okay, that I can't stop because in the end it will all be worth it. In the end God did not send me here to fail, He sent me here to show me He loves me more than anything and has a plan for me. I am grateful for everything because I know I have friends and family who love me more than anything and has shown me that I can do anything.

I love you all for never giving up on me and knowing that I can do anything. Thank you for believing in me!

Love Sister Shelby Fengel! :)

August 20, 2013

 

Hi Mommy thank you for the Cds!! :)

I am doing okay, we have been kinda stuck in the apartment because my companion is very sick and she might be sent home. I don't want her to, I would miss her too much, I want to keep her but I don't want her in pain anymore. If she has to go I will let her go. I will still have my little baby Greenie, she is doing good with her training she is awesome. I don't even have to watch her, she has got this. We got to go to the temple, it was really nice :)

My investigators are doing awesome, they are so great. We love teaching them and we will be tracting more soon when our other companion goes home. Dang, I freaking don't want her to go at all but I am accepting it I guess. I am taking it day by day, its been a tough week but I know God only gives me what I can handle.

I have been dead tired but a good tired. I love this work but some days I don't even want to get out of bed because I just don't want to take another day. But I know God wants me here, he has me here in this area for a reason, he trust me to help him and teach his children. I am doing what I can and giving my all until I have no energy left.

I am grateful to have all of you because you help me keep going when I am at my last point. Thank you for all your support!

I love you all!!

Sister Shelby Fengel

Investigator and Me

August 12, 2013

Hi Everyone!

I wish I had more to say this week but I don't haha. Not much happened, I am just training and I like it. My poor Greenie is having a tough time getting used to mission life but she is awesome. She is pre-trained already so that's good! I have 5 weeks left with her because I was told I will be training again, so we will see what happens, if he let's me finish her training or give me someone new. It is hard being a leader because I feel like I am not good enough to be a leader but God knows I can so I am all for it. Sister C. is my Robin because I am in a trio again so that's fun. But yeah I am Batman and she is Robin, She is my back up for Sister R. because if Sister R. gets sent to Brazil, Sister C. is with me until that happens. So I am like Moses and she is Aaron, I tell her what to do, we are a great team haha. I want to keep her! And we found out she is half Lamanite, so I am really excited that I get to say. well my companion is half Lamanite, that's right she is awesome! Then my Sister N. who I am training is really amazing, I just hope she does better because I know how hard it is for her to be out here. She is missing the world but I know she will get better. I told her to not give up, that yes it is hard but it does get better I promise, she is awesome though.
 

Other then that we are good and safe, promise. We just have been tracting all week sooo nothing exciting at all, sorry. But I am doing good, just working hard, God is teaching me to be humble and he has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I was always scared to talk to people in the street but my two companions are scared to talk and don't talk so I do it all. I have been dragged out of my comfort zone but it is good for me and God knew it was good for me. So I am obeying to it.

That is the CD! It is the right one, there is no words they don't do words but their music is amazing. Did you find Vocal Point? And the Popcorn CD yet? Thank you for doing that for me :) I have been wanting new music. But I have almost hit my 8th month, yay! I get to Skype you all on Christmas. Umm send it to the mission office cause it will be stolen at my place. It's kinda ghetto but I love the people, they are all Jews and awesome.

ME!

I miss you mommy a lot, I love your letters, they help me get by every week when I feel like I am breaking down. I just wait for your letter to come and it makes me feel better. I miss you and daddy and baby bear, I want pictures of the family and bear. I would love that :) I never thought this

would be so hard to be away from you all but it is and it sucks being away from people I love. But I know I need to be here and help God in any way I can for his children.

Tell the ward I love them sooo much and grateful for their letters and for the relief society, they are awesome! I am SO GRATEFUL FOR THAT WARD! So tell them I love them tons! :D

Well take care and I will email you next week love you all!

Sister Shelby Fengel <3

August 5th, 2013

 

Hello awesome people that I love very much!

I don't have to much time, its been a crazy day so you ready for the big news!!!! I am staying in my area but I am training and getting another sister and helping her to know how to train. It's weird but I guess they trust me to keep two young missionaries alive for a transfer and helping them. I am kinda scared that I am a leader but I was a leader in this companionship because I helped train Sister R.. Now she is training and Sister S. down in the ghetto I am a little worried for her haha because she has always been in nice places. But yeah when the mission president told me my mouth dropped and I said okay if the Lord thinks I can take care of two people I am all for it I guess. I am nervous cause I will be training for the rest of my mission so I guess I need to be ready to start being a leader for the rest of my 10 months.

My investigator that is from Africa got baptized, it was sooo amazing! It was very beautiful, we had great talks and we had a musical number for her. Then we had a huge screen come down and play Mormon messages, so yeah it was a legit baptism!! I know how to throw one haha. But her testimony was beautiful, she was crying all day. She called us and said she has never felt this way before and how happy she was and how grateful she is for us. I love her to death, she is soo sweet and caring. I want the best for her. She said we taught her but she taught us, I learned so much from her.

I been doing good this week, a lot of stress but I am taking a day at a time. Just keep telling myself to breath and that I can do this with out ripping my hair out with all the changes. I just don't want to let the Lord down. But I know that I can get through day by day.

Mommy soooo how much do you love me??? I want these two CDs don't worry its mission approved
so I can listen to them, they are at the church book store. I am getting done listening to the same old stuff over and over again. I miss my music I am going to die out here! I want my music back so bad! But back to CDs, I want the Piano guys, I can listen to them because all missionaries do out here so its safe and I want the Vocal Point please!!!!!! :D

I love you and will email next week take care and thank you for everything!!!! <3

Sister Fengel